Funk
April 20, 2004

This mood I'm in

Nothin's happened - everything's normal
As normal as it always has been
but not really as normal as it should be

It's hard to explain
I can't even explain it to myself let alone provide an answer to your prodding questions
Getting Late playing over, and over
Not simply because it's good, but because it's somewhat sad
And right now, sad seems to be what I can relate to the most

It's not what's being said
but how

It's not the rhythm of the music
but how the vibe and delivery of the words match the melody of the song
and how the melody matches the current state of my soul

I wanna cry... but never can

"How's about I let you
Touch this space that you left behind
The day that you stopped smiling
The day that the tears started falling..."

I've been here before
I recognize
this feeling
I could start crying at any moment
And wouldn't be able to tell you why

It's a scary and unsetling feeling, really
But also comfortable and familiar

Where's that smile
You know, the one from not too long ago
un-forced, un-fabricated
Genuine
and real

Lost.
at least for the moment
In this Funk