exhausted

legs and arms- immobile
body- aching
mind- frazzled and confused
Will- exhausted

my body is not used to this
but it still tries
and tries hard
to get to where it wants to be
and how it wants and needs to move

a dream deferred may end up
shriveled like a raisin in the sun
but a dream on the road to fulfillment
is leaving me tired, afraid, optimistic & concerned
as i am traveling down this road alone

like a dark victory
my life is an oxymoron
the glass is both half empty
and half full

but i still truly believe it'll happen
i'm just venting out of frustration
no rest for the weary
and no success for the well rested
so with baby steps & wavering determination
i forge ahead
exhausted